It got me to thinking.. Do I really love my blog? Do I enjoy writing it?
The answer is I do.
When I first started this blog, I never imagined I would have a readership. I mean, obviously we want someone out there to read it, or we'd just keep it private. I was so oblivious to the crazy world of blogging, I thought it was tiny. Just a small bunch of people who wrote about their lives, sharing it through the keyboard the same way I do. Letting their personalities shine through and say things they sometimes otherwise might not say.
I was so wrong. The world of blogging is massive. Bigger than I can ever comprehend I think. It's been 18 months now and the whole thing still baffles me. I in no way do I class myself as a a professional blogger and I don't pretend to know what I'm doing.. But I'm not a newbie either.
It's obvious to everyone that I haven't blogged much recently.
I've been pretty lucky though. Despite only a handful of posts in the last few weeks, my readership hasn't gone down by much and you lovely, scrumptious people are still commenting when I do decide to inflict my writing upon the world. For that, I am grateful.
One of the problems I find though, like with power, with a readership, comes great responsibility.
Responsibility to keep writing, to stay interesting and to keep people wanting to come back.
I don't thrive well under pressure. If I feel pressured to write, I don't want to. It's probably stubbornness. Either that or fear of failure. Nothing interesting comes to my head and I get writers block. Nothing I want to say forms into words or sentences of comprehension... So I just don't write.
Instead, I sit back and watch others interact. I read their blogs and wish I too had something to say. I'm not a shy commenter, if your post catches my eye, I will comment.
It seems I keep making promises to blog and then fall short. I think to myself "I really must blog tonight.." And instead, I do something else and then fret about not blogging enough.
I love my blog. It's introduced me to so many new people and opened up a world of opportunities for me and my family. I don't think I would have it any other way.
I think you can blog too often. I've had to I unfollow blogs that post 2-3 times a day and sometimes even every day. They post for the sake of posting yet their posts don't hold any real meaning. Just a sentence or two.. Or a picture. To me, that isn't blogging.
I don't mean to offend anyone, I really don't. Maybe I'm not classed as a real blogger because I don't blog enough? Who am I to say what you should and shouldn't post about? Or how often?
I think in the long run, my blog will stay open. I like having it and I love knowing that its something I can call my own. I love knowing that my family are proud of me for writing it.
I would miss my blog if it wasn't here.
I need to learn to Love the Blog I Have!
Read more on Jess's posts about Loving The Blog You Have here..